Had a nice and unexpected talk wit momz tonight. It's almost like she knew I needed it. She made the tears come down, but I feel lighter, clearer even. I know that she wants the best for me, and I want nothing more than to make her proud. The choices that I have made thus far have yet to lead to that road, but I have faith and I believe one day I'll be just fine. I moved out almost a year ago, and I thought that things were going to get better, but they haven't. I thought I'd be happier, but I'm not. I thought I'd be closer to where I want to go, but I'm right where I started. I don't feel stagnant though. As complacent as it may seem, I have learned some much these last couple of months. The happiness that I seek, must start from within. As much as I knew that before, I believe it now more than ever. I need to get back to praying, I'm no longer grounded. I need to get back to mine, everyone and everything else will come after. I need to get back to me.
Feeling inspired.....
So.......
Like it, love it, or hate it. This is mine, not yours. This is me, not you. And this is real!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
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