White Cheddar

I'm not perfect you know?? Human, yes, but perfect, far from it. I make mistakes that I try to make up for. At times I do too much, at times I get in my own way. Sometimes I sit and try to think about when, where, and how things went wrong. Too much too soon. Still never wanted you to go, but you were always so ready to leave. And now this, how easily I could've become a statistic. I'm engulfed with emotions that keep me unbalanced throughout the day. Sometimes I really think I'm fine, and then something as simple as Lexus commercial pisses me off. I wish I knew what to say. I wish I knew that once I figured out what to say that you'd actually listen. And that after you listened, you'd come back. You're so cold but I'm grateful for the never ending reality checks. You were here with me since I got here, and now nothing is the same. I was happy, you seemed happy......And now I'm a conundrum of emotions and you're gone. It wasn't supposed to be this way. I'm sorry.