Fine Tuning

Not sure why it still amazes me, but when people continuously point out my flaws as if they have none of their own it really pisses me off. I mean I don't walk around with a pen and pad detailing and documenting every thing that you do that I may not prefer, so it is fair to judge me?? Or anyone for that matter?? I mean when you leave room for speculation, how can one not assume and wonder?? And when you're guilty of the same infraction do I not mask my disdain with simple, "ok's."

I'm quite capabale of forming the words to get my point across but I make a decision before I just open my mouth... and I think to myself, "it is worth actually saying something about, worth the risk of an unnecessary argument, worth the time of being misunderstood and you're words misconstrued if not totally unheard" and I usually decide it's not worth it.

Then I kick myself because you don't exercise the same caution. You say what you want when you want and I make once again the conscious choice to inhale it and then exhale it. Not harbor or store, not throw back in your face, not remind you of your fuckin skeletons. In the end, I'm made aware of ppl's perceptions of me. In the end I am faced with the choice to do or do NOTHING about the assessments of me. Cuz they can't all be wrong, despite my intentions, I have a tendency to come off rougher, tougher, harsher than I intend.

I will not apologize, but I WILL decide if YOU'RE worth the fine tuning...