True Colors

So the magical stage is finally over and reality has to take its firm place. Not sure how to feel or what to think. Big difference between being upset and being disrespectful. And if I don't fight that dirty back and forth fight then I'm left alone with my thoughts and those alone drive me crazy. By no means am I ready for it to end, it's only the beginning, however.... I know for sure that I'm going to piss him off again and I know for sure that I can't stand to deal with the results of them if they are always going to be this vivid.

He feels I have no reason to be mad, he's entitled to his opinion. I have never in my life been called inconsiderate. It's like my entire life I've been anything but. And I thought that was the case this time around but clearly we are viewing this situation from different angles. Words usually don't hurt me, am actually quite surprised but this one did. Cut kinda deep considering I felt like I was doing way more than I should/had to to begin with... I mean we're just friends right??

But anway, can't take em back and everything going forward now has a shadow already hanging over it...a cloud of sorts. But whatever. Promised myself I'd stop expecting every guy I entertain to b the one....it would be nice though.