Catch Up Niggas!! (Part VII)

Yea yea yea, I've been MIA. For 90% good reason...but I won't bore you. Few things I wanna touch on:

1. T.I., you're WILDING!!!! Congrats on the wedding though, the pics looked as country as I expected.
2. Lyfe Jennings, you're wilding as well!!!! 3.5 years when you got money now shouldn't be that bad though, right??
3. Lilo, Paris, Buju, Bounty....what goes on??
4. Mario - you assaulted your mom?? Seriously


My new boss is a dick. Just wanted to get that out there.

I recently closed a book in my life, in which the chapters went from good to bad to horrible, to OK, to "you know what?? I just really don't care to do this anymore." So I cut all ties and wished them the best. Which was followed by a verbal thrashing equivalent to that of a 3rd grader when they get their feelings hurt, o well. There's no coming back from the verbal thrashing that ensued. I meant every word.

My grandparents left, I miss them already. Gotta B-day coming up, not sure what I wanna do, but it will be something. Going to Vegas for the first time, this should be hella interesting.

I'm tryna not to stress, keep feeling like everything is my fault. Tried to fix it, but just got worse, so I stopped trying. Now I'm in the weeds. Avoiding the inevitable. Went to Giants Stadium, had a really good time. Chilled wit my light skint, how I miss the days of Post. Chilled with the Cheese.....(sighs)

I read a quote the other day:

Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for." - Bob Marley

Simple words, real talk! Just feels like I'm the only one willing to suffer sometimes. Tryin not to turnoff the emotions, but it's not looking like I have much choice. I'd b crazy to keep dreaming, if the person I dream about keeps popping my bubble. Everything is on me. To motivate, feel good, reassure, appreciate, accept. All the things that I would like, I have to provide for myself, so then why the fuck are you even here?? Too early for this or that, but not when it's to your advantage. Insist that you never ask for anything, but turn nothing down. I hate this feeling, it's trapped in my gut, turns my smile upside down. What's wrong with adjusting/making changes/sacrificing/compromising for someone that you would like to spend more time with?? Why is that such a bad thing, regardless of the level your on?? Can someone please tell me. Why does that only get me hurt?? Why am I always the only one that cares?? I'm so fed up. Like border line pissed off, with only myself to blame and no one to give a damn. This shit is for the birds. No sense in tryna b better, or a better person, when your surrounded by ppl who are worse.

Being realistic isnt always a good thing, it has its' flaws as does everything else.

This is def not where the post was spose to go, but i made a fone call in btwn while high on what I now know was a terrible idea.

Sorry to b a kill joy, but fuck it, everyone else is one to me, why should I care??