Acceptance..

I'm absolutely done with the bullshit of it all, you don't realize my worth then so be it....

Moving on...I wise man told me I have a way with words....and when I said thank you, he replied.."don't thank me, just keep being you." Simple words, yet they contain so much depth in my eyes.

I spend so much time trying to appease those that I believe/hope try to appease me, and I lost track of the fact that I can only be one person. Me. And those who don't like it or see soo much wrong in that, feel free to leave me the fuck alone. I don't beg friends, nor companions and much as I hate being alone, I despise someone staying out of obligation. If you're gonna be in my life, do so because you want to.

There's not enough hours in the day, days in the weeks, weeks in a month, nor months in a year for me to sit around and wonder why anything?? I can't force anyone to see me as a woman, much less an individual, much less just me. And I'm done wasting valuable time in my life trying. I'm done talking.

I got enough going on without adding things that I can't control. My so called tough demeanor, I was told I need to let go of. Take the gloves off they say, don't be so reserved. And for what?? For people to think that they can just say and do to me whatever they please?? Wouldn't think it worth it for all the money in the world. That shit's gotten me NOWHERE. Everyone's free to do, say, and act, how they want, and I think it's high time I got back to it.

I'm realizing that a part of the reason that I'm not happy is because I keep trying to be what sooo many people are telling me is a better way to be. But now I realize that it's not a better way for ME. I find so much contentment in doing the things that I WANT to do, and all who may disagree with my choices can kick rocks. In flip flops or not, I can't satisfy you all....

We are all creatures of habit and I contain a few that are frowned upon...(I love that etrade baby), BUT, I will surrender ONE that keeps holding me back. I wanna do, see, and accomplish more and I do believe that everything else may fall into place afterwards...

I want to personally thank Sheldon J Clarke, http://sheldonjclarke.com, aspiring and talented actor, for the encouragement and positive words. I recall the convo, and I remember us getting into the fact that the world is full of wasted talent. People that have gifts they refuse to acknowledge nor chase, depriving the world of things new and unheard of. Keeping to themselves things that can make remarkable impacts on the future. Lack of motivation, no guidance/direction, unaware of how to channel, the excuses are endless.....but one thing is for certain, the world continues to evolve with or without their input. But imagine with me if you will, a world, where everyone's potential for greatness was maximized and exhausted without reserve or judgment. Imagine...

I think of possibilities, incessant as they are, and I realize that I was born to be more than regular. More than normal. More than average. I was born to be great and to inspire greatness. And if it's not in the form that you see fit for me.....then you should know me well enough to figure out what to do with your opinion!!

Onward....post haste!