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Like it, love it, or hate it. This is mine, not yours. This is me, not you. And this is real!

Monday, January 24, 2011

Not so sure anymore....

When I'm alone in my room, sometimes I stare at the wall. And in the back of my mind, I hear my conscience call. Yall know the rest. The chorus is more so the point....

But I'm not so sure anymore....

I feel like I'd prefer a little more understanding, compassion, and stability to be honest. I think then the love would come alot easier.

I can say that I'm exhausted at the thought and disappointed in the most recent of outcomes. But I'm not a quitter, so I'm just taking a break. From the madness and BS of it all. People are who they are and they do want they want, and I accept that. But I recently stole/posted a status on The Book that goes as follows...."Sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them......"

I'm generous, willing, understanding, and giving by nature. It's the way I was raised and I wouldn't change it for the world. However, I can control the ppl I am this way towards. I unfortunately can't tell this all on the first encounter. But I'm learning...

I want what I can't have and I love what I can't keep. I'm becoming a product of my circumstances and it's blinding me to what I truly desire. I'm getting older and growing tired of disappointment...I want so much more than what I've been given. And I don't mean to seem ungrateful...But you DON'T get to just be here!

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