So I took my lil sister out to dinner last night, she recently graduated with honors from Clara Barton HS. And I am extremely proud. After allowing her to sip from my alcoholic beverage, it was only once, the conversation went to a place I've been somewhat avoiding.....
Long story short...My lil sister, as of 3 yrs ago, has been confirmed to not be my lil' sister. At lease not where DNA is concerned. And I feel a kinda way about that. I will love her as my sister as long as we both shall live, but I can't lie and say that it doesn't hurt. She doesn't know who to channel her anger at and I have no idea what to tell her. She has every right to be royally pissed off but I mean "'hey sis, your mother was a lying conniving unfaithful whore" seems a bit harsh. Yet dead on. My dad was no Rico Suave going about it either. He told her they were going go get her a cell phone. Next thing she knows she's getting her cheek swabbed. SMMH. Classic Pops though.
I just want to help her but I don't know how. I don't expect her moms to, the woman didn't even come to her JHS or HS graduation, smh. And dad is defintely out of the question. I was trying to explain that the blame needs to be shared amongst all responsible parties, and not just Dad. He's truly heart broken. I personally don't think he's ever been the same. He didnt trust his gut, cuz everyone all those 18yrs ago had an opinion and told him not to take the test then. I tried to make her see that nothing is going to change how the family treats her. I told her if she doesn't want to talk to her mom, then at least ask her who her father it, bcuz the bitch knows. I told her not to harbor the anger, hate, animosity. Not to let it manifest and consume her entire being. She's worth so much more than that.
I'm ranting, and my purpose in this particular writing was to express my disgust for those "adults" who can make such bad decisions without the thought of the consequences. The story may not be exactly the same for all. Some women are just nasty and sleep around. Some women get pregnant on purpose to keep a dude, mind you the child is for the next nigga. And some women, like the above mentioned, come to this country, woo a man, get married, apply for citizenship, cheat, make him believe it's his kid, leaves him right after, lies and tell the cops that he hit her so that she can get a restraining order and keep him as far away from her deceit and fuckery as possible. Detailed plan I must admit, but all of that for what?? So your daughter can get child support and you not have to deal with the man that was trying to turn your hoe ass into a real woman?? Those women, are DESPICABLE. Yur wombs should be extracted and burned in front of your face. This situation itself happens more often than not, and its wack everytime. We have this lost generation, growing up believing that they know who they are only to find out the the man whos last name they carry, the cousins that they grew up with, the family vacations that they've taken, can so quickly become obsolete. For reasons that had nothing to do with them. We see it on Maury and Tyra, and this shows that some make a mockery out of. But it's soo real life it's disgusting. It's now become my real life.
So.......
Like it, love it, or hate it. This is mine, not yours. This is me, not you. And this is real!
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
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wtf? Really. We all have a story. Some, like this one I must admit are incredibly fkd up...just, abject, barenaked depravity. Lil sis will always be your little sis...and I know you feel some kinda way...but, trust, there are not nearly any adequate adjectives to fully encompass her emotions right now. She may seem ok outwardly, for the most part...suppressing it...but only because there's no way even for herself to articulate fully.
ReplyDeleteYou know, ppl become grown...but not every grown woman is a lady and certainly not every adult male is a man. I haven't seen or heard it all but I've heard enough to lose faith in human nature...I think we're totally fkd up as a species. There is some redemption to be had...but, very little...and the bit of it there is is drowned out by the wanton savagery we impose upon our own.
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